A little bit of the good life...or just some thing inbetween!

My thoughts and feelings about money go from one extreme to another! In one way I would be happy to live in a caravan, just me and my dog. Have a liscence and travel around. On the other hand I often find myself day dreaming of having a ton of cash and being able to live in a big house with lots of clean furniture, simplisitic with loads of space around me, Lots of dogs for company with friends and family visiting and even family living at one end of the house (yes the house i day dream about is VERY big). I think that is actually my dream, not a unusaual one! But I grew up with next to nothing, and learned the importance in life is the people around you who you love and to be the best person you can be. My life has been far from materialistic, and the most important gifts I recieved from my family were the beautiful lessons learned on the journey of my life. I can happily go one way or another...to live the life of a traveller or to have a life of material richness. My life, however, is rich..its rich with love, rich with experience, rich with apreciation, rich with true emotions, rich with comfort and support. But I guess we all want what we cant have. It's terrible, but i can never escape the thought of wanting to have lots of money, be able to give my family what they rightly deserve after a life of struggle and to have the comfort of knowing everything will be ok! Who doesnt?!
I love the thought of being able to afford fantistic holidays and travel time and coming back to a wonderful home. I guess what Im saying is I have never had a 'home'...my family are my home, but no destination! Having moved around so much I have never really settled, and spending you entire life renting you never feel any pile of bricks is actually yours to go back to. I do what I can to help with certain organisations, charities, people, animals and the enviroment... but I can never escape the thought that repeatedly pops in my head ''if I had money I could do so much more!''.
My life is wonderful, it always has been! Sure, I have been through a ton of troubles and so has my family, but the beauty of my life is the love I have within it. No amounts of money could ever buy that! And for that I am eternally greatfull.