I hate goodbyes!

My all time best friend has just been down to see me for a few days... and tomorrow she leaves!
I already feel like she has gone, I really cannot stand saying goodbye. She lives a few county's away from me, and with so much going on in our lives we don't get to see each other often, but with all the years that pass, nothing has changed! We call each other almost daily and if we don't call, we IM, email or text. Every time it comes to our last day together I get stupidly sentimental. I start thinking about how different our lives might have been had i not moved so far away when i was 14. How I may not have met all my crummy ex boyfriends, how I may not have gone down a totally wild road for a while, how we probably would have lived our little dream we always had as kids of living together for a while when we are 'grown ups'. And now suddenly here we are, all grown up. I had some crummy boyfriends, I went down a wild road and i never got to live with my best buddy. I couldn't be happier for her, as all i want for my best friend is for her to be happy. She fell in love, he treats her like gold and they set up house together last year. But it makes me realise and think what a big influence our best friends have in our lives. Every time I see her I feel grounded, like everything is going to be OK. That is the feeling you have also if you are fortunate enough to live closer to your best friend. I have had a lot of friends in my little life, But Kerry is like a sister to me, Always has been and always will be. Time passes us by, but our friendship never changes, its like the only thing in my life that doesn't evolve. It just stays bliss full. Always picking up where we left off.
Every time I see her, I start thinking about my life, the things I want to change. Its a positive thing, It's like I start to reevaluate the things in my life, start looking at my priorities and begin to make changes.
So the positive side of having such a close friendship with miles and miles between us, is its so special when we do see each other, we grow, we change, and we stay the closest of friends. Life blossoms and we always have each other through everything.