I love getting out of a hot bath, squeaky clean, smelling fantastic and freshly shaven legs. What I love even more is after the tub, getting into a clean bed with fresh sheets and having a good roll around like a pig in sty! The feel of the sheets on my shaven legs is just heaven. Its like paradise on your skin...OK I'm starting to sound like im advertising Lady Shave! But I really do love it that much. When it comes to it I am a bit of a girly girl. I love my make up, every day is a fancy dress up day for me and I faff with my hair endlessly. However, sometimes, it does all get the better of me and I find myself thinking ''why can't I just be beautiful without make up, with natural flat lifeless hair and big fat hairy legs''. Some times I just want to let myself go completely so I can learn to feel comfortable with my truly natural self! Don't get me wrong, I don't go to the extent that alot of british ladies do, for example, I have never had hair extentions, I would never use fake tan and I don't keep an eye on my weight...I certainly don't watch what i eat, put any food infront of me and it will probably be gone within five minutes! But I do take care of my appearance, and I enjoy it! I love being playfull with my style and feeling good about myself. I love the feeling of having clean skin and I have a skip in my step if i know im smelling pretty good too. But some times I cant help but wonder ''would my boyfriend fancy me as much if I never shaved my legs? Never wore make up? Never faffed with my hair? Never thought too much about the clothes I wear?''. When Im looking my worst, usually first thing in the morning, the sweetheart that he is.. He tells me he thinks im absaloutly beautiful, I can never help but feel he is lieing, and Im sure i am not the only woman who has this reaction! When did we come to believe that we are looking our best when smothered in make up and pampered head to toe? There has been a few times in my life when I have not been recognised by some one I know when I am au naturel.. for example, three years ago when I was living in a flat above my place of work, My boss came up to ask me if i could cover a shift. I answered the door with a towel wrapped around my hair, completely make up free and wearing a plain and simple nighty. He looked at me confused and asked if he could speak to Marcia...I laughed thinking he was joking, but his facial expression didnt change. ''ITS ME'' I laughed, ''jesus christ is it?!'' he replied. I think I ended up feeling more shocked than him! I couldn't believe my own boss didn't recognise me the moment he saw me free of my daily 'mask'. Then there has been the countless occasions where I'm wearing just slightly less concealer under my eyes than usual, and flooding in come the comments ''my god you look tired'' or ''are you feeling ok today? you look pretty worn out''! Fantastic, so now I must make sure I religiously smother on the concealer in order to not look run down..even though I feel like I could run a marathon! Great! Once I was even told that my hair is my signature look...so, after a night of a little too much brandy, I decided to chop it all off. I gave myself a cute little messy bob which I personally rather liked. The same person who told me my hair was my signature look, nearly had a heart attack when they saw me with my new do. No matter how long they stared, or how much they were fluffing up my hair, they just couldnt bring themselves to like it... ''But your long locks, they were just so beautiful''. Again, Fantastic, I am now only beautiful if my hair is long and wavy! There are endless occasions that arise in a womans life where she is made to feel far more attractive when she has spent a fair bit of time grooming herself.
Then there are the ladies who are so naturally beautiful they can literally roll out of bed and have all the men fall at their feet...ahh how lucky they are! But then again, maybe its just a matter of confidence. In the past when I went out for nights on the town much more frequently, I would spend a hour and a half before hand getting myself all dolled up. I'd step into a bar, club or gig and would find myself getting a fair bit of attention. Not that I'm being big headed or anything, thats just the nature of those kinds of places! But I do wonder how much attention I would actually recieve if I would go out completely make up free. I do have the odd days (probably only once a year) where I feel confident enough to go out with very minimal make up, and on those days, if you're feeling comfortable with it, it's actually really liberating! Smothering yourself in make up is not liberating at all... its more like a cover up for a insecure surface. But, in this day and age, with all the type of ladies in the media, it's hard to feel comfortable with your truly natural self, and its a battle nearly everyone faces in her lifetime in some shape or form. I tend to avoid trashy magazines now whenever possible and I dont watch much television. So really, I am avoiding all the best places for a confidence crash. And I have to say...it has helped me magnificently in gaining a little more confidence in how I look. I've learned to love my mini buddha belly that can arise from too much junk food, I don't pannic If I have gone a few days without shaving and my legs begin to grow a little woodland of their own, and I will happily walk my dog, make up free! My biggest passion is vintage fashion, beauty and style, So I will never completely give up taking care of my appearance, as I just love to play around. But I am slowly learning to feel more happy in my own natural skin, free of the chains of having to be dolled up. After all, you are who you are, people like you for who you are, and if they don't, well not everone likes every person on the planet, and thats just how it is, its the nature of human beings, So you have lost nothing.
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